A real reason I missed two days of shipping and what I did to get back on track
This morning I faced a choice.
Since I missed two days of writing and publishing, I could put everything away and “just do it”. Or I could reflect and learn. Since I am not a huge fan of mindless pushing through, I’ve decided to do both.
There are excuses and there is a real reason. No time, no ideas, no mood — these are obviously just excuses. And the real reason is…
The messy middle is a danger zone for any creative project
It should come as no surprise, that my struggles started on day 10 of a 30 days challenge.
Motivation is naturally high at the beginning. You are pumped by the idea, naive about possible troubles, and tend to underestimate the effort required. As the honeymoon ends, real life begins.
The middle is extraordinary volatile — a continual sequence of ups and downs, expansions and contractions. — Scott Belsky
So here I am, in the messy middle.
Don’t see any big results yet. Being attacked by internal demons like overthinking, fear of judgment, and fear of not being good enough. If left to own devices, it seems much safer to just not do anything.
This is not the first time I am being stalled in the middle of a project. The unexpected truth is that “not doing” actually creates more pain through regret, guilt, and anger.
So I breathe in. Breath out. I finish and publish this essay.
